A thousand words

*ALL via little miss

Inside my mind.

It's a scary place. Ya know I wish that everyone had a blog like this so I could figure out what they were thinking and the motives behind their actions/words. It's kinda strange to think that people reading this have a glimpse beneath my disguise. Or is this blog my disguise? Ha.

Anyway, back to my mind. I'm just coming to realise that I have issues. I dont think that they are new issues, its just that maybe I was blind to them before. Or maybe I didnt care. Either way, it doesnt matter now. So whats the problem? In certain areas of my life I tend to overreact at situations that arise and some may say I have a fondness for the dramatic. There isnt a problem until something hits me from left of field and attempts to change a well thought out opinion that I have on a matter. Like the simon phillips thing, for example. I dont make opinions lightly, I spend ages analysing things from every possible angle before I commit. I turn them inside out, I drop them from great height and then, just to be sure, I jump on them. If they still make sense then I adopt them as my own and add them to my collection. Naturally I just expect that most people will see how much effort went into it and how well thought out the opinions are and agree with my view. But sometimes they dont. And sometimes things happen that force me to change my opinion... and you can guarantee that once it changes it would take an earthquake to move again. However, this is where it gets interesting, I do believe that everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Further more - if you have also put a lot of investigation into your view from various sources and as indepth as I would then I welcome discussion about it. But people who arent even open to one ounce of the possibility of change annoy me. I try not to be one of them.

At times I am fighting a battle to keep hold of my senses. As an air sign, sometimes it can get the better of me and I fly off on some adventure or on some random tangent. It all makes sense to me, but others dont understand it. I need time to withdraw and work it all out in my head. And once I do that everything is usually fine. I always need to find the reason behind things. When I cant understand where something has come from or why something happened it drives me crazy. I dont just want to see the result, I want to see what you did in the last 5 years to get to that result. I wish I had all the answers.

more about 'words'

As much as I believe in "more than words" sometimes even I have to fall back to them. As much as I rely on vibes and gut feelings and all that mystical stuff sometimes that isnt always easy to read in other people. And maybe its not so easy to read in me. Words hold a lot of power. I think that we may have given them too much power, but it is a fact that we have to deal with none-the-less. I try to think about what words I am sending out into the universe and the effect that they might have. Sometimes, admittedly, I just talk a lot of crap too. Words can bring comfort, give hope and even grow love. And yet words are dust. I'm a walking contradiction.

It seems that I have been storing words for a while now. There are things that I want to say but I never know the right time or the right words, so I just take them unsaid and store them for later. Only, so far later hasnt come. I dont think that later ever really comes. But maybe this time will be different.. I know that it feels different. Maybe I'll find some words that will be the key to unlock the unspoken. I'm working on it!

words are just noises

I recently read a quote from Chris Martin about names and it made a lot of sense to me. I have often quoted: "words are just dust" and thought about what that means exactly (which may have unknowingly come from these lyrics "Words are just dust in deserts of sound"). Now, here is something else to analyse and see where/if it fits in your world.

"People make a big fuss over names: names of babies, names of albums, names of bands, names of people. The thing that everyone forgets is that a name is just a noise, and if you like it, then fuck what everyone else says. That's what it's called. So there’s nothing weird about calling your baby Chewbacca if that’s what you want to call your baby. It’s no weirder than Sarah, it's just that people are more used to it."

- Chris Martin.

words

"Words should be used as tools of communication and not as a substitute for action”

"Words may show a man's wit, but actions his meaning”

"Words can make a deeper scar than silence can heal”

"Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless."

"Man does not live by words alone, despite the fact that he sometimes has to eat them."

"You can speak to me of many things,

but what you show me is more valuable than your words."

"Judge a man not by his words, but by his deeds."