The heart aches for what it desires

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"To be with you in this moment would be magic.

You read my mind.

You play with my thoughts.

You keep me up at night.

This is new but I want it to be old, for I desire

the quirks that come with time.

Speak to me the words I long to hear.

My heart is bound to this hope."

The romance is this

"I’m not the silly romantic you think.

I don’t want the heavens or the shooting stars.

I don’t want gemstones or gold. I have those things already.

I want…a steady hand. A kind soul.

I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe.

I want to love, and be loved."
—Shana Abe

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The thoughts you keep

"I thought about you last night.

Infact I have thought about you a lot recently.

I dont know why that is, there is no special anniversary,

no strange amount of days since you departed.

I keep wondering how long it has really been.

I have stopped myself from counting, because I feel like

I dont need to know anymore and it doesnt really matter anyway.

You left a big hole in my life.

You all did.

Woah, to think of everyone who has gone from my life that I

thought would always be there.

The world will let you down, kid.

The world will kick you.

But you have to take that world in your hands, clean it a little bit

and love it all the same.

It means well, and there is a lesson in everything.

I read my diary yesterday - the chapters where you filled the pages.

There was such love and hope and innocence written in those pages,

I wonder if its only inside that I have changed.

Every day I keep on learning.."

Smile and the world smiles with you

Underneath the surface

"You never really saw the depths of me.

You never bothered to look beneath the surface.

That should have worried me,

I should have noticed.

But all I saw was your smile.

I should have seen the distance in your eyes,

I should have taken notice of the cold.

You pretended to be someone you werent,

and before long the act wore off.

The spell was broken.

I dont want to be in your head anymore."

Let's get to the heart of it all

"It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.

I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream

of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are.

I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love,

for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon.

I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow,

if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become

shriveled and closed from fear of further pain!

I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own,

without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own,

if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you

to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us

to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.

I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself;

if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul;

if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty even when it’s not pretty,

every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine,

and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the

full moon, “Yes!”

It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.

I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair,

weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here.

I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.

I want to know what sustains you, from the inside,

when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself

and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments."
—Oriah Mountain Dreamer

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The complexities of love

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Truth and love

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The challenge is the key

"Challenge me. Make me question my feelings

and float away with the night.

I want to feel alive again.

Challenge me. Ask me questions that delve into

the very depths of my soul and subconscious-

to analyse why I do what I do.

Challenge me. Push me further than you thought

I could go and then watch me run back to you.

Because nothing here is worthy

and I am tired of the endless battle.

Challenge me and see if I can fall in love with you."

Your love, the weapon

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in the midst of darkness dont lose the light

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"It is true, time heals all things.

But what it cant change is that hard knot of rage

you hold deep, deep within yourself.

If you dont work through it, and open it to the light

now and then it grows - like a cancer- in the dark.

It twists and it turns and it burns away.

I have forgiven many things in my life.

I like to think I am a forgiving person.

But there comes a time when enough is enough,

and that last chance shatters into a million pieces.

I used to let people walk all over me.

Then it happened one too many times and I snapped.

I grew a hardness deep inside.

Part of my innocence and faith in humanity died.

I keep the rest of it in place with string and

rubber bands.

I'm not losing any more.

I see so much beauty in the world.

I know that I'm a contradiction but thats ok.

My life is a work in progress, and I keep

working at it every day."

To long for something out of reach

"Nothing drives a person more crazy than longing.

Wanting something that is just out of your reach.

It doesnt matter what it is - a dream job, vacation

or even a lover.

When we can see it in the corner of our vision,

when we can smell and taste it but it is

just too far away to touch - that is torture.

And in those moments when we reach the edge

we must push through and make those dreams

happen.

We all have moments of despair when we wonder

where our life is going.

We all question the choices we make.

This is a good thing, it helps us to live the

best life that we can and to actively choose

to make that happen."

the truth of love

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Were lovers now strangers

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"I dont know what would happen if I saw you.
I think I would just walk on by.
Knowing inside that tears are falling,
but outside there will be a drought.
All the hopes and dreams have faded, as has
the intense love that I felt for you.
You dont deserve me.
And I deserve more than you."

The tone is everything

"If you have something important to say, try

whispering it for a change.

Let the wind take it where it needs to go.

A gentle "I love you" says as much as when you

shout it out at the top of your lungs.

Watch how it floats across your lovers face - from

her ear to her lips, ending in a smile.

Be delicate."

The distant road

"I wanted a man who’d experienced pain at one

point in his life. I needed someone who wouldn’t be

reckless with my heart, who knew what it felt like to hurt.

I wanted a man, not a boy.

I didn’t want a man afraid of loss but one who wanted

me out of joy, out of preference.

And I needed to live that way myself,

to find someone I truly wanted, not just someone

who wanted me."

*via this will hurt

The regret you will feel

* via thoughts on a sunday

"I never thought you'd let me walk away that easily.

Without any real attempt to work things out.

There was no screaming, no fighting and no

real emotion on your part.

I think I imagined those tears in your eyes.

They didnt glisten like the ones that fell from mine.

I thought you would see how wrong you were.

I thought that you would miss me - my laugh, my

imagination and my love.

How could you not miss me?

I took the best parts of you and I washed away the

worst. I pretended you were this perfect specimen,

someone who had no faults and did no wrong.

Maybe I imagined the whole thing.

I never wanted to be the tragic person who has

been broken by a lover.

But when I let you in I opened myself up to hurt.

And I'm not ashamed to have loved you that much.

How naive and sweet I used to be.

If you ever pass by this way to see how I am

doing. If you stop by to read my thoughts and words,

know that life is full of moments and you had me,

for a moment. But then you let me go.

And that regret is yours to carry."

Cant ever go back

"I felt like that moment would change me,

that nothing would ever be the same again.

And it wasnt.

Now that I have gone there I cant ever

go back and pretend I hadnt.

I know the way now.

I cant pretend that I dont.

If I knew it would turn out like this I

dont think I would have done it.

They say it wasnt true love if you dont

think the pain of the end was worth it.

I loved you with all my heart and soul but

all of this has ruined what we had.

The darkness has bled into the light

and the past is now a little murky.

I am moving on."

Strange life

*via chasing birds

"Life is strange. One moment you are

deeply entrenched in this crazy romance you thought

you would never have, but would always last,

and the next he is

completely gone from your life.

So much so that you cant even remember what

he smells like. Things like that make me sad.

I dont even have his mix cd anymore, they stole it,

but in the end who knows what he did with mine.

It doesnt really matter now.

I spent so much time looking for the answers,

for the reasons behind everything. I guess in a

way it took my mind off the grieving.

Still, it hurt like hell and I hate him for that.

It was the shock more than anything.

I wonder how I will feel in 2 years time.

I dont regret my part in the whole thing, I was

nothing but true to myself and if that pushed him

away then he wasnt worthy.

It just makes you realise the inner strength you hide.

If I got through that then I'm not so worried about

what is coming up.

And yet I dont want to open myself to that pain again."

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True Peace

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